Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Just Don't Know

Just don't know what to make of what has been going on around here. Wisdom and discernment are needed and I am waiting upon the Lord to guide me.

As I am sure I have mentioned in the past, being a parent lasts a lifetime. Doesn't matter what your child's age is you still are happy when they are happy and sad when they are sad.

I've been blessed to quite often be able to learn from other people's mistakes. Don't get me wrong; I have made some of the stupidest mistakes in the past. What I am saying is that, had people not kept their counsel before I jumped in I might not have taken the plunges that brought me such pain. Telling me afterwards did no good.

Now I find myself weighing my words with my children; especially my daughter. I do speak up but it falls on deaf ears - or so I think. So much unnecessary pain. It hurts me.

Having a grandchild changes how you act toward your grown child, too. Her welfare needs to come first and, if I don't think it is, I want to jump right in. Tact is much more difficult.

Ugh. I am so happy I have prayer to help me through. I don't think I'd be alive without my faith. I'm not all that strong without God's hand holding me up.

Have you ever felt like giving up and running away? Oh, yes. I am blessed that I have a couple of places to go overnight if I feel I am going to burst.

If you have a child or children and you knew then what you know now would you have still had them? I love my children so much. That being said, there is only one way to get grandchildren...

Do you realize that those "perfect" families you see all around you aren't? Perfect, that is. Took me a while but yes, I realize it. I have found that, after getting to know them, I am happy to come home to what I live with.

Are you sick of holiday sweets yet? Just when I think I am I get a yen...

In saying the new year, are you saying "twenty-ten" or 'two thousand ten?" I want to say the latter but am afraid of being lazy and saying the former. I have a keen sense of being appropriate. heavy sigh

Be well, gail

1 comment:

  1. I think being a parent is difficult no matter what the age. There is always something going on with them that is hard to watch. You want to save them from themselves, but it is all a process of letting go. From the time they are even a baby and having to leave them in the nursery at church to an adult with their own child and trying not to interfere. Just difficult.

    Have you ever felt like giving up and running away? Definitely. Almost everyday!

    If you have a child or children and you knew then what you know now would you have still had them? Of course. I love them so much it hurts. Can't imagine life without them.

    Do you realize that those "perfect" families you see all around you aren't? Yep. I was just watching the beginning of the bachelor and had to turn it off when he went on about finding the perfect person for him and happily ever after blah, blah, blah. So unrealistic and the making of a divorce.

    Are you sick of holiday sweets yet? Yep, ready for savory today. But I have a sweet tooth so it's almost never enough.

    In saying the new year, are you saying "twenty-ten" or 'two thousand ten?" Two thousand ten.

    Have a great week my friend!

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