This past year started off rough. I won't get into details but personal issues caused a schism that was difficult to crawl out of.
Ever been in that situation? "Crawl" is the perfect word because it is so very hard to forgive and work out what hurts us. On my own, I can do nothing. It is only by the God's mercy and grace, through His Holy Spirit that the years the locust have eaten can be restored (Joel 2:25).
Restoration is hard but, with Christ, all things are possible. Give Him a try if you haven't already. We can talk if you like.